Thursday, March 31, 2011

blast from the past

Reminiscing the past makes me swoon.  

Back then, I AM ME. The cool me, the happy me, the fun-loving me, the down-to-earth me, the not-caring-much-about-what-people-think me. And the times spent were all worth it. Miss the old days so much. Miss the guys there too.

And now, I’M NOT ME anymore. People change with time.  Yes, I know. But when I look at me now, I can barely recognize the other person staring back at me and it doesn’t please me at all.

I’m missing my inner me. And I need to find her again. 

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Jar of Hearts

heard this on my way to fill my dear stomach.

and the words catch my ear.

hurmm.. Lagu yang Kuat..
itu aku suka..

Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri

I know I can't take one more step towards you
‘Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
‘Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?

Monday, March 14, 2011

Float Buoy!! Float!!

Yesterday went movie-mania alone. trying to watch all the movies in my dear Lappy. Need to clear her (Yes, Lappy is a girl, okeh.. So is my kancil, Miss Pudu). It will not be long before she's congested with all the haven't-had-time-to-watch-yet movies. 

And with all that pending movie list, I've managed to download MORE MOVIES from the net due to Sandy Frenzy syndrome I've had recently. So, another fifteen movies were added. There you go. When will I finish watching all these movies. Aiyyoh..

So, back to yesterday. Sandy Frenzy was in full blast! Six p.m. sharp, the curtains were drawn to cinema-fy my room. With my dear roommate off on her holiday, I got the room all for myself. Terbongkang tak hengat la jawabnya. 

Anyway, watched Hope Floats with Sandy as the lead. 

I'll give this movie thumbs up. Times hundred. 

Felt strength rising inside of me. Strength to stand up and walk tall. I may say that I'm cured. It's been three years. But to say the truth, I don't think that I'm really cured. You know, being cheated really left a huge scar on me. A scar that will bleed from time to time. And still praying that all will just remain as the past. 

But, as soon as the strength settles in, my dear negative thoughts amplified through my head. She's a beauty, surely men waits in line for her. Me? Huge ultimate sigh there. And I couldn't agree more. Guess I just have to go on with my life any pray that the scar will stop bleeding. And if insists on bleeding, I'll apply pressure to it. Gauze it up, bandage it tightly.

Okay, enough about that. All I wanna tell all of you is the soundtrack from the movie is just super sweet

do enjoy the songs k..

Ps - my english is getting rusty. need to polish+wax it till it shines..hahaha..

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

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